Wednesday, December 5, 2007

re-thinking Lily's suicide

Re-reading the scene of Lily's death I'm starting to think that maybe it wasn't a suicide after all. Although she doesn't seem to care too much about the risk, this is more of an act of neglect and apathy then a decision to commit suicide.

"She knew she took a slight risk in doing so; she remembered the chemist's warning. If sleep came at all, it might be a sleep without waking. But that was but one chance in a hundred : the action of the drug was incalculable, and the addition of a few drops to the regular dose would probably do no more than procure for her the rest she so desperately needed. "

Then the narrator speaks more as an outside analyzer of Lily: "She did not, in truth consider the question very closely; the physical craving for sleep was her only sustained sensation. Her mind shrank from the glare of thought..."

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